8 ways to win Tdazzle's heart

1. Treat me with respect.

2. Love me even when I dont deserve it

3. Be a good cook (cause well im just not)

4. Give me my space. I like my alone time. I hate to be pushed when Im angry and I absolutely despise feeling like Im trapped!

5. You have to absolutely adore my children.


6. Buy me small things like Red bulls, skittles and things you know I love just because!

7. Get to know me and understand my ways. IF you dont know me how in the world will you ever capture my heart!

8. I HAVE to be able to trust you with my life or you will never find my heart!

9 things about Lil OLE ME!

1. Im a mother

2. I love to run. Its great anger/stress management and its good exercise

3. I love naps.

4. I love clean/pretty things. I cant relax unless things around me are clean.

5. Im stubborn

6. Im learning to give things time instead of making hasty choices that hurt me or someone else in the long run

7. Im strong on the outside but, not all the way through. I would never admit to being fragile but, there are parts of me that are.

8. I love calmness and cant handle chaos very well.

9. Im a creative person and love decorating.

Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. Kelbie - I am a little worried about you these days. I hope high school doesnt change the girl that you have always been. Stay beautifully you no matter what. Trust in your morals and go with your gut! I love you!

2. Autumn - You have been like a ray of sunshine to me the last couple months. I hope you always know how much your kind and honest words touch my life.

3. Mom - I feel closer to you these days then I have in a very long time. Thank you for listening and keeping an open mind. Life is much easier when you have your mama!

4. Jes - Where in the world are you? I miss you!

5. Cassie - I worry that our friendship is hard on you and your family life. Please know that I would never come in between something as precious as you and your family. Your a lucky girl and Im lucky to know you! Thanks for being my family!

6. RC - Its time to pick your self up and carry on. Put your big boy panties on and change your life. Its a bit ridiculous how low you have fell but, theres never a time I dont believe that you have it in you to be better. Do it for your kids until you can do it for you!

7. Randy - I hope....thats all I can really say!

8. Clay - your an amazing beautiful person! I hope you know I look up to you and thank God for you every day

9. Nana -
I thank my God every time I remember you.
-- Philippians 1:3

10. Me - Keep your chin up. Your mind will clear eventually and you will see everything you need to see until then hold on and trust in God to carry you through. You can do this!

Lets try this again....

So I did the whole "30 day challenge" where you write a letter to someone everyday. Well I kinda sorta did it but, now there is a new (less complicated) challenge and I decided to try and actually complete this one. Here's how it goes.



Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


So wish me luck!


Tdazzle!

It was then that I carried you...

One of my best friends introduced me to a song this morning that made my heart cry. Im going thru a pretty tough time right now. Fighting for my happiness! I have fought harder battles, ones that make this one seem so silly but, its still hard when something is trying to steal your joy! The easiest thing to do is to surrender to the sadness and the darkness but, I have never been that girl to surrender to anything. Im fighting because I have great friends that see that I am worth fighting for even when I dont exactly feel that way.

Footprints in the sand has always had a place in my heart. "It was then that I carried you" has always been my favorite part. It makes me think of times when I made it through something that was to the human eye impossible or unsurvivable and I always think that to myself "It was then that he carried me" Its so inspirational to know that we all have someone who can lift us out of anything, anytime, anywhere. When you think of having someone that strong, that powerful on your side it puts things into a whole new light. There is no where I can go that he wont be right there. No amount of sadness or darkness can scare him away. Today, that makes my heart cry out because while Im not proud of where I am, I know one day I will turn around and wonder how in the world I climbed out of that mess and that same line of that same poem will ring in my head "IT was then that I carried you"

Thank you to Autumn for being such an inspirational woman. For your faith in God and for your faith in me. For carrying me through sad times and for reminding me that even when its too much for you or I to handle that there is someone ALWAYS there to carry us out. Im so glad that you and Jesus have my back!

Here are the beautiful lyrics to the song

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I’m going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I no along the way
Then I heard you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid
And just when I
Have thought I’ve lost my way

You give me strength to carry on
That’s when I heard you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

When I’m weary
Well I no you’ll be there
And I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

When I get to heaven!

"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.
I want to drive up in a station wagon (SUV) that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived."

PS: And when I go to heaven I want the skies to look like the pic above!

If I were.....

If I were a month, I’d be October. I love the fall weather.
If I were a day of the week, Sunday
If I were a time of day, sunset
If I were a planet, I’d be mars
If I were a sea animal, Id be nemo!

If I were a direction, I'd be lost! lol
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a huge chase lounge chair.
If I were a liquid, I'd be the ocean
If I were a gemstone, I'd be a emerald
If I were a tree, I'd be weeping willow.
If I were a tool, I'd be a hammer
If I were a flower, I'd be a white daisy or sunflower
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be sunny and in the 70's

If I were a musical instrument, I'd be the piano
If I were a color, I’d be green
If I were an emotion, I'd be numb
If I were a fruit, I'd be plum
If I were a sound, I'd be a rain

If I were an element, I'd be air.
If I were a car, I’d be a green bug!
If I were a food, I'd be chips and queso
If I were a place, I’d be a warm home.
If I were a material, I’d be tshirt material
If I were a taste, I’d taste sweet n spicy.
If I were a scent, I'd be pumpkin pie
If I were an object, I’d be a diamond ring
If I were a body part, I’d be eyes.
If I were a facial expression, I'd be a smile. :)
If I were a song, I'd be Love never fails you
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be strappy heels or flip flops

A letter to the person I wish I could be.

Dear the person I wish I could be:

I wish I was more patient

I wish I was a more happy person like the women who poop skittles, rainbows and fairy dust.

I wish I wasnt so guarded

I wish I wasnt so negative

I wish I had the body that I did in high school

I wish I was more intellegent (did I even spell that right)

I wish I wasnt so ocd

I wish I was more nuturing and loving

I wish I hurt less

I wish I had more faith

I wish I didnt think so much

I wish I had bigger boobs and a small butt

I wish I knew exactly what i wanted in life and that nothing would stop me from getting it.

I wish I wouldnt of ever got married the first time

I wish I was a better mom and role model for my girls.

I wish I had more money

I wish I would take more time to play with my daughters

I wish I knew why my grandma believed in me as much as she did

I wish the broken and dark side of me was never placed there

I wish I was better with money

I wish I was a better cook.

I wish for more jewelry

I wish love came easily for me.

I wish I knew how to accept it better

I wish I wasnt so stubborn

I could go on and on about the person I wish to become but, the bottom line is this. We all live and learn. We all stumble and fall and each of us fails! I hope to leave a legacy that lives long after I do! I hope to continue living and learning. Ill take the failures with the victories. Ill take the tears if they bring me sunshine. Ill take the pain if it brings me joy!

Letter to someone from my childhood!

Dear Dichelle

You are the first memory of a friend that I have. I can remember being so excited to come spend the night with you as a child. You had the neatest puppet room ever and we always had so much fun together as kids. I can remember riding in the backseat of your parents car listening to country music and singing along at the top of our lungs. I remember saturdays at your house were cleaning days and I never thought you would be able to finish so that we could play. I remember sneaking out of your bedroom window just to go to the front door and how cool we thought we were. We grew up together and I was super mean to you at times. Like when I stuffed leaves in your glasses on the playground. Geez, Im sorry for that. Your the only friend that I have had that has lasted a lifetime. Although we arent super close I know without a doubt that if I or my children needed you that you would be the first to show up. Im so proud of the woman you have become and the mother you are. We have both had a rocky road growing up, we have made our own share of mistakes but, have remained friends. Im so proud that you followed your heart and stood up for the man you loved. Im so proud that your married and have a family with him now! I truely hope that your life is full of the happiest moments and the most loyal friends. Please know that I am always on your side and that you made my childhood a little less scary just being my friend. I love you!

Tanya