Yep! that picture says it all! Exactly the way I remember my brother and I.
Dear Brother
I have always thought of you as a stronger person than me. I can remember as a little girl always knowing that you ran faster, jumped higher and punched harder than me. I always wanted to be just as strong as you seemed to be. I never was but, always wished to be. As teens we fought and kinda went our seperate ways but, I always felt a sense of pride that you were my brother. I secretly hated the girls that hurt you and secretly crushed on all of your guy friends.lol. Somewhere between the fights and growing up I lost you. I know that you feel like it was when you left and went to Canada but, for me it was as if I lost you way before you ever got on that plane. I would stay up at night just wondering what you were doing in that far away land you left to go to(and often wondered why you didnt take me with you) and I would always pray that God would somehow keep me in your heart! I have missed you for so long now that its almost become a part of me. My heart has no doubt hardened to the situation but, I do long to have my big brother back! I do wish often that I could pick up the phone and call you and tell you that someone has been mean to me or just call you for advice but, it seems so awkward and strange because you and I are almost strangers now. I know we are adults now and that we have our own lives and families. I am proud of the resoponsible person you are today. You seem to be very successful and you can tell you genuinely love and care for your family. I know life isnt always easy and for you and I it has never been. I guess you can say we just got used to that at an early age. I will forever be grateful for the things you did for me. The times you stood up for me. I just want you to know that while I feel as if we arent as close as siblings should be I still look up to you and probably always will. I love you brother bear!
Love,
Tanya Mae!
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