Letter to someone who has caused you the most pain

I wasnt sure exactly who to write this letter too. There are so many different kinds of pain from physical, to emotional to the kind of pain that literally rips your heart apart and like most people I have felt every one of those. The problem was that so many people contributed to my broken heart. I cant just name one so here it goes

Dear Anyone who abused me:

To my parents who didnt protect me as a child, to my biological grandma who kidnapped and tortured me for a yr, to the men who helped her torture me, to the men my mother married who molested/raped me, to a dad who abandoned me, to boyfriends who hit me, to emotional abuse from others, to friends who have used me and then stabbed me in the back

I just want to say thank you. Thank you for being as sick and twisted as you have to be to harm a child the way you did. Thank you for the physical abuse that left scars on my body to remind me of just what I have overcome. Thank you for the emotional scars that trigger me to be a crazy lunatic if anyone tries to harm my children. Thank you for the instinct of knowing trouble when I see it. Thank you for tearing my heart out of my chest, stomping on it, and then placing it back in for only me and God to repair because it reminds me that it never stop beating therefore, you didnt destroy me. Thank you for the mind games that confused me about what real life and real relationships are suppose to be. Thank you for scaring my insides so much that I wasnt suppose to ever have children because once again you were defeated each time I gave birth. Thank you for starving me, not bathing me, not giving me the small things children are suppose to have because now its the little things like a hot bath and mexican pizza that are just amazing to me. Thank you for trying with all your efforts to kill me, destroy me and to make me just as dark as you are because you didnt. Because I win! You have scared me both physically and mentally but, you didnt destroy me and because of that I know without a doubt I can survive the unsurvivable! Im stronger than any of you ever were and you cant beat me. I am a child of the most high, loving, caring, and amazing God. My destiny was always to be blessed and happy and with all your efforts you didnt take that from me. So thank you. All of my pain, tears, and blood have sealed your fate.

Tanya