This letter was super hard for me. I actually have been thinking about who I should write a letter to. Im not proud of this fact but, I have been pretty crappy to alot of people. I bullied girls in school, I have said horrible things to my friends, and I havent always been a super forgiving person. Every time I thought about this letter one sweet girl enter my mind each time so this letter is for her.
Dear Kelbie
I truly hope that you know without a doubt that I have always had your best interest at heart. That being said I have made some horrible life changing choices that have affected you in so many ways. While I know I did the best I could at the time I made each decision. Growing up and becoming wiser is hard because you have to look at the mistakes you made and face the fact that no matter what your motives were you still screwed up. Even harder than that is when you realize that those choices hurt someone you love. Im sorry for the poor choice I made in high school when I immaturely gave myself to a boy that I never loved and in return he never loved me. Im sorry that I chose him to be your father even if it wasnt a direct choice. Im sorry for every single ounce of pain that it has caused you. Im sorry for anything I have ever done or said that would make you feel like anything less than the precious person you are. I hope that as you grow when you think of me you feel as if I only built you up and never tore you down. Im sorry for the times I lost my temper and lashed out at you. Im so sorry for that year that I left you way too much to be with my friends. I know that hurt you so much and that it made you feel that you werent the most important thing in my life. I cant take it back but, I hope to restore that trust! You are my heart. You are my everything! You and your sister have been my inspiration to be the best form of me that I can. I hope that when you think of these things you can find it in your heart to forgive me and realize that I am only human! I wouldnt ever hurt you intentionally. I love you
Love your mama
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