This one was a bit hard for me too because there are actually 2 people that come to mind when I think I someone I could have met but, never got the chance. First, is my best friend Jessika's mom. The second is my boyfriends dad. So they each get a letter today.
Dear Karen
I could say a million things to you about how beautiful your daughter is but, as a mom I know that I wouldn't be telling you anything you didn't already know. I just wanted to write and tell you thanks for being the strong woman you were and raising her to be the woman she is today. My life has been touched by her so many times that I have lost count. She speaks of you as if you were more than a "SuperMom". I know you are watching over her and I know that you are just so proud of everything she is and everything she stands for. Thank you for teaching morals, about motives and most of all how to be selfless. On one hand I love that about her but, as you know she takes selflessness to a whole new level. Its almost a downfall at times. She compares me to you alot and I want you to know that its one of the best compliments I have ever received. You were an amazing woman.
Next, I want you to know she misses you just about every moment of everyday. I know she goes from being so unbelievably broken from losing you to fighting mad at you for leaving her. I know you understand and I know regardless of how horrible she may talk at you that you never leave her side. I wish there was a way that she could feel your presence because I know that it would give her some peace. There are no words to describe the sorrow that Jes feels over losing you but, also over losing you the way that she did. I cant imagine being in her head or heart for one day. Wondering what really happened. Wanting so bad to solve the mystery. I know without a doubt that you fought to stay with her. I know you would have done anything to stay. I know we have no control over when we go and I know you wouldn't leave your children ever if you would of had the choice. I'm sorry that you didn't. I'm not really sure exactly what I believe in about the after life. I know without a doubt there is heaven and there is hell but, as for ghosts and spirits I'm not sure what I believe so I just want to say this to you. If there is anyway to solve what happened to you and you are where you can help her please do. I want so much to see Jes completely happy and I know that nothing can bring you back but, for her to know exactly what happened would give her peace of mind and I know she would fight until the day she dies for justice for you. You were her entire world and you taught her all she knows. Everything. The good, the bad, and the ugly. I thank you so much for that and I hope that you are resting in peace knowing that although I could never love her the way you did, I will ALWAYS take care of her. That's my promise to you.
Dear Randy the 1st:
I have heard so much about you from Randy and others. It seems like you were a "Good Samaritan" of sorts. Your son def takes after you in that. People talk about how fun and crazy you were and how you never let people take advantage of you. I wanted to write to you and tell you thank you for everything you did teach your son. I also want you to know that he hurts so much over the times you were not in his life. He wishes so much that you would of been more involved in his life and I think that he feels maybe a little cheated. There is no doubt that he loved you very much and that in alot of ways he looks up to you. He does his very best to take care of his siblings and worries about all of them more than he would ever show. He always says that he wishes you could see him now and see all the progress he has made since he lost you. He has really grown into a successful man. He is a wonderful dad to Aly and also to my girls and I know that he watch you take Tyler under your wing and treat him as your own. I have to say thank you for that because Randy is just like you in that aspect. He is always willing to do whatever for all 3 of our children. I hope you know just how amazing he really is and I hope that you look down on us and are proud of the life he has made. I know that if you could do things differently that you would. Im sorry that you never got the chance to do that. I know that he also wonders how you died because it was so sudden and I wish there was a way to know so that he could let go of that part and start to heal from losing you. He doesn't deal with things like that very well and I assume maybe that came from you too. lol.
I want you to know that I love your son. I love him from a place I have never loved anyone else and I thank you for whatever part, big or small, you had in making him the man he is today. I pray that you rest in peace and look down on us often.
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